| A crisis |
[Oct. 7th, 2003|09:47 pm] |
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Oh man, i have a HUGE problem. I dont know how I am getting to or home from homecoming...if someone can help me out, let me know!!
Thanks--S.Koch |
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| A very very long sunday |
[Sep. 28th, 2003|07:00 pm] |
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Today has seemed so long. I woke up around 730. I got home at 11 so i wasnt to tired. Andrews house was ok last night, i wish i had gotten to stay longer tho. Everyone was getting there as i was leaving. Anyway, I was way depressed today so i went to the mall and went shopping to see if it would bring my spirits up alittle but it just made me worse. I came home and more tried dragging whatever was wrong out of me for like an hour. I talked to matt and it made me feel better but by the end of the convo it made things 500% worse. My mom says she understands that I miss him cuz shes going threw the same thing with my dad..well she doesnt understand-no one made her and my dad break up when they were perfectly happy and enjoying every second together(even if it was hard times, every relationship has fights and down times, but that doesnt mean its going down hill...) Well-mom wants to move like asap after october 14. thats when the divorce is final- She wants a condo in Hunters creek. |
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| To my D... |
[Sep. 18th, 2003|03:34 pm] |
Hey...I just want to say that your my bestfriend and if I made a mistake Im sorry. We got a unique friendship and i dont think anyone can replace that. I just want to talk to you and figure things out.
For whatever i did im sorry--
Love ya~S. K-och |
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| Whoa... |
[Sep. 18th, 2003|03:25 pm] |
Whoever is posting on my livejournal as anonymous is pretty immature, i hate that shit. Well lately things have been weird. Its been really depressing-for me at least.
Amanda--I dont hate you, we need to straighten this shit out. Im not saying we are great friends or whatever, But i am sooo over the shit that has happen. im cool with you, theres just so much drama going on that i dont think i should be holding a grudge or something. i dont want u to think i totally hate or despise you or something either...well i hope things are alittle better now at least...
Today was to bad, my id picture came out horrible--i look so pissed off. well i got some homework i got to go do.
muchlove
Steph |
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| I wish you were here... |
[Sep. 17th, 2003|08:09 pm] |
Wow, been a long time since my last update. Like 3 months man. School is bogus-work is fine, having money is killer and im sick as a dog...other than that things are cool. Im getting my nails done on friday, i figure i earned it. I dunno what i am doing after school tomorrow. proly just coming home and doing work like usual. i might give Amy a call up and see what she is doing. Damn-tomorrow i gotta tkae my id pictures=rated G...im not up to that! Today was pretty fun. I took missy back to her house after school, we took the dog out and chilled for alittle and then went to my house. she got to meet Cookie-damn dog. from there we went to hungery howies and got nasty ass pizza for 5 bucks and went to Adams house. we just hung out there and then andrew, funk and my Dirrty showed up. I left to go to matts soccer game. He won, he did so good. Walter was like trying to get me to go eat dinner with him! EWW...not feelin that! hes being such a jackass. i got some alg. homework left. My belly button is a killing me right now. i hope its not infected. well im out.
muchlove |
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[Jul. 31st, 2003|12:50 pm] |
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Today I have to hang out with Mom. She says that we dont spend time together anymore and that she misses me. What the hell-She sees me everyday, lol. Well, she says that i go out with my friends alot now and i dont do anything with her so we have to do something. Ill proly take her out for some coffee and then to finish my school shopping or something!! But anyway--Hopefully tomorrow me and mauria are going to go out and do something. I dont know what yet, I pretty low on the cash. I want to go to the beach this weekend. Ill proly end up just sleeping in my car and waking up early and hittin the beach. I think that will be fun. G-reg has to work tomorrow night and i doubt he'll want to drive out to Cocoa right after work. Walter and Denise want just the boys to come and do something with them saturday(they didnt invite me, how rude) so i dont know if hes going to be able to come anyways.
I have like the worse headache today! It sux. I just think that I need to get out of the house. Well-Im outta herre.
OneLove... |
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| Battered and Bruised |
[Jul. 30th, 2003|10:51 pm] |
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Okay so i have been running around for a week and i think its finally catching up to me. Heather has been here since the 22nd and we basically didnt stop doing stuff the whole time she was here, and she just left at 5 today. We had such a great time. We killed so many brain cells, lol. She got to meet Mauria, Chris and some of my other friends out in Apopka which was cool and i was really happy about that. We spend the weekend at the beach with Walter and his whore girlfriend Denise and her daughter Denise...mother and daughter with the same name, i think thats kinda odd. Well, that trip was okay. We meet some cool people there and partied with them. We tried surfing and we had a blast. Even tho we didnt do so hot, it was funny just trying. I got a killer tan on my back and chest, it looks great. I went school shopping while she was here & got some pretty cute shit. Me and Matt are still talking almost once a day. Im not so sure what we are anymore. Its so confusing, it just wears me out thinking about it. I cant bring myself to take down the pix in my room and out of my car. its so weird. In a way i feel like we are still together but i know that we arent, in a way! I still love him but i know it just wont ever work out. Im moving on the best way i know how to!! lol...I got my pix developed today from when Mauria spent the night. They are hilarous. Chris is passed out in one of them and looks so completely adorable!!!! Well since Heather has been down i have gained so much weight. EWWWW! we ate so much, its going to be so hard to lose it now, thats the horrible part. Oh well-I have to find a job now that my vacation is almost over and school is right around the corner. Mom is makin me go to wal-mart tomorrow and apply. Blah---if i cant get a job anywhere else than im going to have to go to Publix or something like that. I really dont want to work at a grocery store but im think i might have to.
Greg's girl is over right now. We havent exactly 'clicked' so far. Im trying my hardest to be nice to her. Like i went to McDonalds and i offered to get her something and shit but she still wont talk to me that much. its weird, shes nice to mom and shit. She is actually getting alittle better than before tho, thank god.
Well im out of here...
OneLove |
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| Holla! |
[Jul. 19th, 2003|06:54 pm] |
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Im at my aunts house right now watching my cousins. my aunt and mom are out at bingo in tampa. they should be home in another 2 hours or so. Im actually really madd that i have to be here cuz i wanted to go out with Mauria tonight...i got my car back which kicks ass. And i got 40 bucks for staying here today so i guess theres always a good side to things. Havent been sleepin much lately. HaHa-Mauria slept over the other night(last entry)...the drunk guy was funny and we only took like 2-3 little naps. We went swimming at like 6 in the morning and made these KICK ass brownies right before that. Oh and going to Hess at 4:45 in the morning was definately an adventure. Eggs are good, right Mauria? lol...well today i didnt do anything, i went down to WalMart to apply and on monday i got to go to some more places...boring but i need a job despretely! I dont know what im doing tomorrow tho, which sux. Heather comes on tuesday! i cant wait, we are going to have a blast. Well im out for now.
MuchLove,
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[Jul. 18th, 2003|03:15 am] |
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Its 3:15 in the morning. Im sitting here with my D Mauria. We are waiting for my drunk friend to show up. Hopefully he will come after mom leaves.
Its been real--its been nice---but it hasnt been real nice!
Texas chain saw massacre scared me.
S to the teph |
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| Just an update |
[May. 27th, 2003|12:23 pm] |
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Well school is over now finally. Its time for me to get a job. I went out looking for a car but i didnt have to much luck. I found 2 that Im considering...I leave in 3 days for my cruise, Im cant wait-in a way...LoL, it should be fun. Matts staying at our house while im gone and painting it. I think it will look really good once its done. Well, Im out for now
Later on
S |
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| Happy Birthday to me! |
[Apr. 23rd, 2003|03:26 pm] |
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I had a pretty good bday. I didnt get to update yesterday cuz Matt stayed over late and by the time he left I was sleeping. I got the cutest shirt from mauria but its pretty big on me, but its still cool! Some kid gave me a lolly-pop and tina gave me a card and birthday cake muffin at lunch! it was really funny! I got $150 from my mom and $25 from 3 of my aunts. So i got 225 bucks yesterday which was cool but now im down to $180. I gave matt $30 to get a new tire, i swear we already frickin live together. Oh and I bought him the Jaheim cd today at target!! Oh and my mom got me this really pretty silver necklace. Also this white gold necklace with 3 diamonds on it that stand for my past present and future! it was really nice...she started to cry tho!and me and matt were laughing our asses off at her! lol...well thats about it! im out!
later on |
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| Satisfaction! |
[Apr. 15th, 2003|08:51 pm] |
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Today was fabulous!! I got my progess report from my Geometry teacher today, well i had an F but i got him to change it to a D! And so far in this semester i have a B so my mom says im not in trouble any more and i can do anything! Im soooo happy its unreal! Well, you know how i was dieing to find out my bday present that my mom and my boyfriend were sneaking around and being all sly about getting well i found out!...kinda found out that is. You see, Matt called me just a minute ago and told me that he was getting it and he needed my moms help with something...the problem was, was that my mom wasnt at home and didnt have her cell phone on...so he hung up with me and i thought id call him back real quick and just tell him something not realizing its a business and they say the name of it when they pick up the phone. Well when i called the number back it was KAY JEWELERS! MY mom and Matt are getting me jewelry! AWWWW! Well, i didnt ask or him when the lady picked up the phone cuz i didnt want him to know that i knew where he was at, ya know! well i will act surprised! HeHe!
Mauria-Are we still doing something one of the days next week for my bday or what!? let me know D!
Later ON!
S |
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| One long saturday! |
[Apr. 5th, 2003|07:42 pm] |
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I feel like I have been awake forever. Everyone seems to be pissing me off today. I talked to matt for the first time at like 3 and he apologized. Im not madd at him but he thinks that I am. Oh well, he should be calling soon. Yay! I sooo regret cutting all my hair off back in December, I should have listened to m hair dresser! He was so right about everything! Well, its getting alittle longer but its not the same. Anyway, things are good. Mike made me realize some things today when we talked. And then I started to talk to mom about mike. Its weird cuz her bestfriend Kenny, have been bestfriends for 30 years. They dated in high school once but realized that it was weird and they were MEANT to just be friends, TrUe friends. Thats how me and mike are. When we talk it just flows and theres so tension or nervousness to think of things to talk about. I feel like he knows everything about me and visa versa. Its weird, theres no "feeling" there anymore cuz I love Matt and he knows that...Its just good to find someone like that and i hope everyone else finds a friend like that too, so Mike, if ur reading this, thank you-for everything!
So many things are changing now. School, responsibilities, family, feelings, me, friendships...everything. Some changes are very good and then other arent. I miss somethings and the way they used to be. I guess thats just the way things work in life.
So anyway, heather is coming down July 22-31! Imso excited. We are going to have so much fun! I'll have my license by that time and we will be able to go to the beach and just chill. I wont need any one to drive us around. Its going to be so much fun...I probably wont see matt for a couple days but I'll live. His friend CJ is coming down in a couple days, hes staying for about a week...i cant wait to meet him!! Well my mom is teasing my about my bday present right now...She said it is around $150 and smaller than a bread box, so if any one has any ideas, let me know!!! I also get $150 from her and dad! Yippy! KeyWest Money!
Later On!
MuchLove,
S |
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[Apr. 5th, 2003|12:08 pm] |
I had to wake up so early this morning. Greg had to go take his SAT's for the third time. Lets hope he scored more than a 740! I also had to wake Matty up for his baseball game, they lost though. So, Mom decided that she'd tell Matt what she is getting me for my bday. I guess it cost $150 cuz i "overheard". I asked her for just money for my KeyWest trip but she said she still wanted to get me something. It buggin me cuz matt said it was good...umph! Oh well, I dont have that long to wait! I wanted my friend Mike to come over for my bday but hes going away on a cruise so i cant see him now! Blah...oh well, Im gunna go
Later on!
MuchLove,
S |
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| Thursdays seem so long |
[Apr. 3rd, 2003|07:05 pm] |
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This week has gone by soooo slow. Im so bored that I go to bed at like 8! Its so sad! But im in a lot better mood now which is great. Im trying to decide what to do for my 16th bday! Its comming up so quick. Im not sure if i just want to go out to dinner or have a party or a family party...I know that the only family that would come would be Aunt Laurie and Uncle mike and there kids & my papa w/ his girlfriend. Paula and Debbie said they wont come to my bday...wat bitches! Oh well...I guess anything will be cool. I just want money tho, cuz May 2nd me, matt, donney, jamie, jamies bro and his friend are all going down to KeyWest for Jamies 21st bday! Its going to be so much fun! YAY! i get to miss a friday of school to, im stoked...well, im going to go
Later On
S |
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| April Fools Day |
[Apr. 1st, 2003|06:17 pm] |
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Well, today wasnt that great...yesterday and sunday werent so hot either. I got an F on my report card so my mom wont let me see matt now. Bummer! Im trying to get her to let me see him by being responsible...Im going to have weekly progress reports for that class-im pretty sure that she likes that idea. I miss matt, it sounds pathedic but i do. I dont know how i will last till Friday(and if im lucky that!) Some things are in my mind right now that i cant get out, it bothers me to no end and i cant wait till next week. I hope i dont jinx myself-if thats even possible but who knows...its prolly all in my head, hopefully! Well im going to go worry my ass off and watch some t.v.
Later on |
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| Nothing new... |
[Mar. 27th, 2003|05:49 pm] |
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Today was sucked. I slept till like 9:45 and then i spent like 2hours in the doctor's office, for him to tell me shit i already knew. He said i should only being feeling shitty and have the Mono for like 2-3 more weeks! Which is cool...It will be over right before me Bday, hopefully! I have a fever today so im feelin worse. Krissy stopped by after school which was pretty cool, she got to meet matt and the 3 of us just kinda chilled for awhile. Matt stayed till like 4, before mom got home...she would have freaked if she knew either of them were there...I wasnt supposed to have people over today. HOPEFULLY i will get to see Matt tomorrow cuz mom doesnt know if she will let me do anything or let anyone come over. It blows, i hate mono! Well enuf complaining for today. Things will get better! :)
Later on!
MuchLove,
S |
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| ~*Last Day of Spring Break 2003*~ |
[Mar. 23rd, 2003|09:15 pm] |
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I cant say that I didnt have fun this Spring Break but I cant say I had a blast either. It could have been a ton better!! There was a couple things that were real important to me and I will remember forever but thats the only thing that made my S.B. as good as it was. Most of the time I was resting still trying to get ride of the Mono..ARGH! I hate it so much, trust me, never get it, IT SUX! Im going on 2 months with this bullshit and its hardly getting better. Today, I had to go to the most retarded cook-out I have ever been to in my life. It was at Debbies house...Her and paula just piss me off but i cant do anything about it cuz of my mom. She pissed me off today too. I was that i didnt enjo the cook out and she blew up on me and said it was cuz of my boyfriend and she talked about us breaking up, it almost made me cry. I just wasnt in the mood to hear it. The entire cook-out Mom talked about Greg and how special and talented he is and even made up some lies and huge exaggerations. Im so tired of it. While she updated my great aunt and uncle on her God, Gregory...me and the coolest aunt and uncle in the world(Laurie and Mike) sat on the couch drinking beers and watching Nascar...Why cant the rest of my family be normal like them! i love them so much, they are my fave!! YAY!! Their kids are totally kick ass too! Well I gotta go clean the house and do some shit so i dont get yell at some more! Later on...
MuchLove,
S |
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| Long Nights |
[Mar. 18th, 2003|03:03 pm] |
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| | Champagne Supernova | ] |
Spring break so far has been a total bummer. I havent done a thing yet. I have been bored out of my mind! I sleep most of the day and stay up at night watching the infomericals and Blind Date. I have to say this isnt what i was looking forward too. Matt has to work everyday from now on till I go back to school. I cant really complain cuz he has to work and he needs the money but I just wish his hours werent so long. War suks too...Damn, well hopefully things will get more exciting. Walter offered to bring me and one of my friends to the beach but i would rather choke on my own vomit than do that.
I hate when people are so immature. I know Im not the most mature person to but some people need to tone it down alittle bit. Its o.k. to be serious sometimes. Not everything you can joke about.
Yesterday, I saw the most beatiful rainbow! It was so big! I had to take a picture of it!! Well, im going to go for now...
MuchLove,
S |
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| Last Night... |
[Mar. 17th, 2003|08:43 am] |
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It only takes one little thing for you to realize how young you really are. |
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